I was beside myself. I felt all alone. I had been talking with friends and family for months about my experience with postnatal depression with psychotic episode but felt disconnected, as if somehow I was the only one. Is that possible? To be the only one? But I had friends and the paramedic who said to ‘watch out for PND’, so surely there were others?
My mum suggested back during the episode that I started writing, and I attempted to journal but it just did not seem right. It felt like that medium encouraged the depression and thoughts to continue, in silence. Over Christmas I was sitting outside next the caravan one summer evening with Mr. A when I said him, ‘I think I am going to start a blog tomorrow’. He smiled and replied, ‘I think that is a great idea!’. And so on the 27th of December I opened this account, plus a Twitter and Facebook page, thinking ahead as to how to spread the word, because surely, there were others out there, like me. Suffering alone. Isolated.
When I first joined Twitter on the 17th of December I quickly located Rosey at the @PNDandMe account who two years ago, began #pndchat which is a peer support network.
So there are others, like me.
#pndchat has helped keep me in touch with others who are or have, gone through a similar experience. However, they are all located in the UK, and their experience in the health system seems vastly different to mine. So after a few days, I thought about reaching out to see if there were any Australians on Twitter who could connect and on the 3rd of January, sent out my first tweet using the handle #pndoz.
It took another three days of using the handle before I met the awesome Amy at PND_Recovery and we teamed up to start the #pndoz handle. We have been using the handle consistently in an attempt to reach out to Australian women, to make connections and bring PND in Australia, out of the shadows.
To Beat the Stigma.
To stand in Solidarity.