New normal

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Recent days feel like thick sludgy mud. Is this life? Is this the ‘down’ that my doctor talked about? A state akin to depression but that is really just ‘normal’. Well, I don’t like it. It is difficult to do anything.

  • Getting out of bed – like pulling taffy from a conveyor
  • Making breakfast – as easy as stumbling around at night without any light
  • Eating breakfast – taste? what taste?
  • Playing with X-man – how good are my acting skills

There is this emotion, a feeling that I cannot name, sitting in the base of my stomach, churning energy, emotion… boredom? Apathy? Anxiety?

All I know is that if this normal that I don’t like it, no not one bit.


3 thoughts on “New normal

  1. When I read this post, I was moved to the core because I recognized all of it so well! So please don’t think me to be too much of a bossy b*tch or a sickeningly sweet Pollyanna when I suggest that you consider this to be not the “New Normal”, but the “New Temporary”, lovely Become Mum.

    As much as I loathe sounding like Ms. Fixit, could you give your doctor a ring to bring up what you’ve been dealing with and (hopefully) adjust medication?

    Going through what you describe here so concisely and so well is hellish and you deserve 100% better. Please keep us posted. I’ll be thinking of you, hoping that you’ll be able to taste food, not feel like taffy and be able to be “there”, i.e. yourself, during playtime with your little guy asap!
    XoXo

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    1. Thanks Dy, I called my doctor and we have agreed to track my moods for the next week to see if this is a pattern emerging. Super frustrating. You are right, 100% better is normal, not fuzzy sludgy thick cloudy thoughts of negative energies xx

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      1. I’m so glad you called because sometimes when I’ve felt that way and put it off (???? I know…duh!) Proud of you for taking action, darling BecomeMum! you rock! XOXOXO

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