Recent days feel like thick sludgy mud. Is this life? Is this the ‘down’ that my doctor talked about? A state akin to depression but that is really just ‘normal’. Well, I don’t like it. It is difficult to do anything.
- Getting out of bed – like pulling taffy from a conveyor
- Making breakfast – as easy as stumbling around at night without any light
- Eating breakfast – taste? what taste?
- Playing with X-man – how good are my acting skills
There is this emotion, a feeling that I cannot name, sitting in the base of my stomach, churning energy, emotion… boredom? Apathy? Anxiety?
All I know is that if this normal that I don’t like it, no not one bit.