Last night I had some difficulty sleeping. I was unsure whether it was a hormone thing or a medication thing but my mind automatically went to medication. My mind was racing, you know, like when you have anxiety or a heightened state of being like the start of mania. I was feeling very hot under … More 36 weeks tea, acupuncture and work
Parenting is the easiest thing we ever have to be. Don’t freak out, it is not that I think that parenting is not important, but I mean that it is part of who we are when we birth our babies. That first moment of looking into our child’s eyes and seeing yourself reflected as clear … More Being a parent is easy
In 2014 when I birthed my son I never conceived that I would have shifted my whole sense of self with this event. Six hours of active labour and 20 minutes of pushing defined the boundary between my identity as a single entity to transforming into a parent, an adult responsible for not only growing, … More Am I letting tech raise my child?
Being medicated is a state of being. It affects the way you think, move, eat and live your life. I have been medicated in some way for mental illness since 2013, and on pills for bipolar I disorder specifically since my first psychosis in 2015. Today marks the first day of me only on antipsychotics- … More
It is amazing when I feel you move. I feel like I know when you are going to be active, either after food, in the bath with your brother, when dad massages my sore hips. I find myself dreaming about you more and more, and I am not filled with fear anymore, but rather excitement … More Thoughts, just thoughts